Two of my purpose pillars ❤️
I am a corporate hippie from way back. I love the thrill of running a business, the pragmatism required for important decisions, and the stress of waiting for the P&L to print off at the end of the month. However I also love my mother nature. I was raised on a farm by hard working, animal loving parents. They taught me to dream big, bite off more than you can chew, and chew like mad. My Mum is the doTerra essential oils business leader, yoga teaching, alkaline water drinking hippie and the current inspiration for the new side hustle I have just become super passionate about - DoTerra Essential Oils.
Trying to tie the hippie me and the business me together has been exhausting - my whole career!! I have never quite been able to straddle the paradoxes well and hold my personal brand together. Its cause me stress. Much stress.
People have recently started to comment - people who care about me. They notice the strain, or the sadness under my “business face” and they comment, and yet I say “Nah, I’m fine!!” - what a lie!!
To be honest, I am burned out, highly stressed and not at all feeling like my best self. I have the best job in the world, the most amazingly committed fiancé (can’t wait to marry him!!), beautiful children and friends, yet I am putting on weight and have been using the regular 2-3 glasses of wine a night to tune it all out.
This week I did something different. I took a week off, and I fully immersed myself into some personal development work.
I sat in a workshop today, centred around emotions and today, I reached some emotions that I have been deadening for a really long time.
I realised that my whole belief system is a series of paradoxes. I’ve been trying to balance these beliefs, with not much success and it’s worn me down.
For the longest time have known my career conflicted with my belief system but I kept on “pursuing the next block, the block was dead, to!!, so I continued to A1A Beach Front Avenue!!”. Wait what?!...sorry, as I was saying....
I believe my top 3, most important values, in order are:
I want to be vibrant! I want to people to say “I want what she’s having” not “I wonder if she’s ok!!” Or “She looks like she could do with a drink!”.
My work after this week is to focus on what I love, what lights me up. I can do business and hippie, and in fact HealthEngine and the future of Australian Health will be better because I am on my A game, filling my life, leading with purpose.
How do you feel about the trade off’s you have to make in your life? How can you create your life to combine your passions and avoid the trade offs?